Insomnia

I have a verifiable case of insomnia caused by marital separation. This is probably the worst case I have ever had. I haven't gone to bed before midnight since I got back from California-but the latest I stayed up was 4:30. I'm attributing this to a variety of factors. First, it has been almost a year since Nick went into OCS. We are now facing a year of living apart. Also, California was the most time I've spent with him since June. I guess you could say that I miss my husband.

This is the first time we moved. It made me very sad.

It's an odd feeling. I'll move in November. I don't feel here nor there. What's life here without Nick? What's life in California when it's not home? I feel like I'm on a seesaw. I want to cherish every moment spent in my house, with my family, with my friends... but then I am just DYING to start life out west with Nick! Enough of that Navy wife spattle-

I got a long term sub teaching job at my old school. I'm going in completely blind. I don't know my schedule. I don't know my students. However, I am completely thankful to have only been unemployed for two weeks. God is good. I'm teaching a full load of special education children. Sometimes I lie awake and just think about how I'm going to do that- but then other times I just pick out my outfits I'm going to wear.

Well, hopefully I'll go to sleep in only a few more hours!

Love, Kaley